(in pursuit of magic)
You find your dream job, your dream home, your dream love… and soon, it’s just like every other. I mean, you appreciate it, you live with it, you do what’s needed, you might deeply love it… but that feeling of a rush and a spark fizzled out.
And then what?
This is the point where I typically loved to exit in the past.
Have you been there?
I’d move from city to city, jump from job to job, head from one relationship to another… all the while looking for the eternal flame of excitement that would sustain itself.
It didn’t realize at the time that what I lived for was a “high.”
Once the high wore off, what I was left with felt like it was not enough. Physically, I wasn’t feeling the rush. I always felt let down and I’d be told by “rational” people that this was how life worked in “reality.”
Not in my reality. And I bet you don’t love it in yours, either. Who really wants a lackluster life?
The rush always faded, whether I was in the most coveted of jobs or the most thrilling of romances, even if I was giving my all. I started to wonder how life worked in a more long-term fashion and if I’d have to settle for no spark and no passion in order to commit to a one single career or a relationship or a place to live …or anything, really.
Turns out, it’s extremely common. Craving the rush is like craving drugs. The more I got attached to this rush, the more I pulled into my life people with this similar love of the high. Everything became so much more fever pitched and unstable. I’d find jobs with this same feeling of high… I’d find “perfect” situations that would be not-so-great after a few months and I didn’t understand exactly why.
I always knew that to do anything real there has to be a deep level of commitment. So, I got very deep into committing, even if it felt strange and foreign and contrary to my thrill-loving, magic-and-glitter nature.
There are two things I realized: 1) I’m not crazy: it is possible to commit to things that are pretty consistently exciting. 2) We are the generators of this thrilling stuff.
If you’re ready to have the thrill back in your life where it’s fading, you can make it happen right now. Continue Reading…